Saturday, June 30, 2007

One Saturday

I was in the bank early this afternoon, got there about 2:30PM and there were lots of people in line. Mga bagong sweldo at nagdedeposit sa savings account. As my eyes scanned the room, I saw this cute little girl in pink walking around...and then she saw THE DOOR. I knew that that door led to where the bank girls get all the money and cards and files, little girl didn't. But she seemed excited to open the door and go straight inside...without knowing what to expect. Pano kung may monster o pulis o mumu?

Wouldn't it be great if we learn how to open doors with the same attitude?

The Bible says, we should have a child-like faith. Jesus calls us to ask, expect, be pure and joyful like a child. He wants us to come to Him with such great anticipation, just like how a little kid goes after candies or a baby after milk. A baby's intention is always at its purest - her reason for crying could only mean two things: hunger or discomfort (brought by dirty nappies or sick stomach, etc); her reason for smiling/laughing is pure joy.

He wants us to ASK!!! We Filipinos grew up with this mental stronghold that we need to work hard first and earn God's blessings. But Jesus said ASK AND IT SHALL BE GIVEN UNTO YOU. It's true, I can't help God - God is God who made everything. The Bible calls it grace.

I think it's time I ask myself: What's behind my relationships? What's the real reason for spending more than 40 hours a week in the office? Why do I feel good everytime I shop? Why do I smile at people? Why do I go to church every Sunday? Why am I writing this entry?

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For me, the word 'selfish' is big. When this word is tagged on someone, it takes on a whole new meaning.

But you know what, I realized that the word LOVE is even bigger. Put LOVE in any kind of situation or experience and it becomes better, greater and more meaningful. = )

Monday, June 11, 2007

Wedding Bells???

For the past month, I've been asked 10 times (more or less) when I am getting married. Yup, you read it right. It's the M word, my dear friends. As you kn0w, I'm 'in a relationship' with June who was my classmate and best bud in college. We've been together for more than 2 years now and almost everyone who know us are asking when we're planning to get married, or if we ARE planning to get married soon.

Sa church, nung Sunday, during my faith group's icebreaker (parang truth or consequence ang dating pero walang bottle, fingerpointing lang), I was asked by my bestfriend, Ellen, the BIG ?: 'How do you see yourself in 5 years' daw.

Buti na lang, the other ladies were joking and laughing so it gave me time to fix my thoughts..."Ok, in five years? Bale 2012. Ano na ba ko nun? Nanay. Diploma. Bahay. Bible. Speaking French. Gitara. Bahay. Kotse. Fishball. Blog. Damit." One sis asked me if I'm planning on getting married soon.

Sa office, my TL volunteered to be the host of my 'wedding'. We have a team member who's pregnant and because of my excitement for babies, I always ask her details. They say it's a sign that I will soon have my own baby because of the way I look at my team mate's belly. And they're betting I will be married really soon.

Sa bahay/family, Ate Dinah just asked me last week kung may plano na ba akong magpakasal. At kung si June na ba. Tita Gina (lola nila Bleu) asked me the same question while we were sitting on Bleu's bed (he was just hospitalized). Ilang taon na daw ba ako at wala pa daw ba akong planong mag-asawa.

Si Mama at Papa lang ang hindi nagtatanong. Haha.

Oh Lord. = )